April 23rd, 2007 by chernyuan

if i cudn’t accept the rejection, i wudn’t hav known tat i wud be ready. but now i know i am. to purpose within yourself to want to succeed, to not allow yourself to fail at those moments in life where habits/past occurrences accustom u to fail. but instead to turn those failures around and use them as strengthening points in the journey of life, and then later as points to test how strong the moldings are. to not see failure as the end of a chapter where u start sth new, but as a stepping stone which u use to propel yourself to greater heights. I am ready and i want to succeed. towards rising up, and achieving sth at the end of this year and within the next 5 years.

March 22nd, 2006 by chernyuan

ah jst one of those days when i feel like changing my msn nick over and over again. tot why not blog instead.

saw a quote the other day. "being loved by someone gives u strength, but loving someone deeply gives u courage". does it make sense?

being loved by someone fills the void present in everyone since we were still babies. and the strength comes from the knowing tat someone loves u unconditionally…well…almost unconditionally =p someone who will always be behind u catchin u when u fall, walking in front of u when u’re lost, at your side when u need company, over u praying and watching, under u…hmm..nevermind.

loving someone deeply however inspires u to sacrifice your time, your money, your interests. it takes your focus out of the more mundane things of life. your personal principles become more rooted as they are forced to mature, aligning not just one life but two. compromise takes on a different level, u do things u wudn’t dare or bother to do alone, u go a step further, stretching your limits, pushing yourself. jst the courage to love the other person. courage…wat an interesting use of word to describe love…but not all surprising, actually.

December 10th, 2005 by chernyuan

hmm…it’s my 2nd ever blog. who wud have ever tot this will happen? bloggin in my life is such a time consuming process and such a waste of time. at the end i don’t even get the same satisfaction other ppl get from it. i jst feel like deleting it the minute i press the ‘publish’ button.

but wat makes a person successful in whatever he does?

first let’s define successful. without looking at the dictionary….i guess it’s jst being extremely good at watever u choose to do. say u are a garbage collector, but if u’re the only one in the world who can invent a system to collect all the garbage in Selangor everyday, while eliminating the smell and after tat converting that same garbage into something useful like fertiliser, i think u’ll be pretty rich. of course then there’s the status factor…ie…doctor is more respected than garbage collector bla bla bla. not interested…moving on

how about successful by how much money u earn? of course there’s the reasoning that u can never be satisfied by how much u earn. and if there’s someone who compares his salary with bill gates’, he’s not going to be ever satisfied…but tat’s boring as well…moving on. the richest man in malaysia is the sugarman…according to a fren (reliable source? lol i dunno) but it does make sense. sugar is a staple product. everyone needs it, but then so is salt…so why don’t we hear much about the saltman?

perhaps it’s to do with how unique u are in wat u do. britney spears like her or not is unique, my dad as an engineer is not unique…he is extremely good at wat he does, but there are many good and experience engineers in malaysia as well. salt is easy to obtain and many ppl can produce it, but can’t ppl grow sugar producing plants as well?

so maybe it’s contacts. sugarman has got lots of powerful contacts, or is he just a strong manipulator. does he play dirty? owing lots of ppl money, bullying his way out of things? i dunno. not going to succumb to sourgrape thinking. if he does it well, and he is the only one to have the guts to do it? then i guess he is unique.

young ppl these days like the word ‘principles’. not toking about core values (like ‘lying is wrong’ but rather a set of rules ppl generally live by or use to argue their way out in justifying anything they do. maybe sth like the rules in ‘the transporter’. but the fact that conflict arise out of personal convictions remind us of the obvious subjective nature of these principles. principles that are drawn from different ppl and learnt from different experiences.

today i had an interesting conversation with someone who has lived in this world much longer than i have but never once have i tot of tat person being too old and out of touch with the life of young ppl. three things were brought up: sensitivity,tenderness and being open to correction. thinking about this, i guess a word that sums this up is adaptability.

being adaptable allows u to modify your garbage collecting technique to suit wat matters to the masses the most in how garbage is collected and processed. being adaptable also allows u to market your product from a want to a need (staple). adaptability of course makes u unique. adaptablity makes u unpredictable to your competitors or makes u likeable to ppl who work with u, greatly increasing your favourable-contacts-list. personal principles is the only contradiction to adaptability.

personal principles held on tightly and executed with successful results boosts confidence. unchecked this turns to arrogance. arrogances numbs sensitivity, hardens tenderness and kills all avenues of possible correction. and ‘….a fall is predicted to follow swiftly….’

i dunno wat all these means. no action plan and no next step. for the moment, i will jst concentrate in being good at watever life throws at me. after all, one thing i know and that is u will be watever u make myself to be.

ps: is being adaptable a ‘personal principle’ then? tat sounds like the most boring chicken-and-egg situation i’ve ever tot of.

November 9th, 2005 by chernyuan

i always wondered why ppl blog? does it function like a diary? some not so private diary? or maybe it’s jst an equivalent action of penning an opinion down so you needn’t think about it anymore, especially if it was about some interesting piece of news; with the added benefit of being able to leave an impression on whoever stumbled upon the blog by chance? some way to kill time? it is definitely one of the easiest ways of keeping in touch and letting the world know u’re still alive. some ppl write after a certain experience, sharing their new found knowledge without being assertive. some ppl jst put tonnes of pretty pictures with funny captions after visiting some exciting place (i like those, though it takes forever to load). some even jst write about their work or who they met in a day. some jst whine…or maybe some blog in a vain attempt to increase their frenster profile hits! lol…can’t believe i tot of tat……if u’re one of them…word of advice: new pictures wud do the job better =D

i never tot i wud ever blog. i’d not describe myself as spontaneous, i like to ponder upon tots over and over again before even saying anything. i’m not the most expressive person, openly voicing my opinions about a certain topic. i take forever to write frenster testimonials, even the seemingly most casually written once. i’m very deliberate in watever i say and do. i like to sit back and analyse people…which is of course different to judging people…i’m sure u know wat i mean, i’m too lazy to explain.

so wat caused me to blog tonite then? jst bored i guess. trying to put myself to sleep…for someone who says he’s not expressive and somewhat private, why then am i telling u so much about myself? maybe it’s jst a diversion to point u in the other direction , making u believe i’m sth else. do ppl actually share completely and honestly about themselves on their blog? i have doubts on those tat say they do…the reason a particular person remains interesting and worth hanging out with is due to a certain level of mystery about tat person. wat’s the point of hanging out with someone who’s completely blunt and predictable? but i’ll go with the benefit of the doubt…makes the world a nicer place to live in =)

anyway shud stop here, no point writing more if i can’t get this blog thing to work. hope u didn’t feel like u wasted your time reading this =p don’t wait for the next one….i won’t write until i’ve tot about it a million times! lol